Anywhere but here...

I've had the deja vu feeling before but what about a different feeling....
I'm not supposed to be here.
"Here" meaning my place in the world.
That place I've been in for more than forty years.
Maybe there's a parallel universe with a different Mitzi, someone happy about her "world".
It came to me clearly this weekend while thinking about Olivia.
Do I belong here?
If not here, where?
And the big question: would I have health insurance when I get there.
I didn't sleep well in the hotel - yet another hotel. I'm tired and just thinking about a different world.